Simply Princess Lonely

am.i.happy.?

2005-06-23T20:26:00.000-07:00

sometimes i really feel so lonely. without him. anyway i think no movie again. i'm sure he will forget all about it again. he's forever busy wit his frens. his buddies. but juz nt me. why?

recently, many pple started leaving me msg in friendster. out of a sudden. dunno why. a trend or wat? it's like near to 10 lorz. anyway, someone recently confessed to me that he like me! oh god. i juz simply can't believe it. haha.

!st day in BPOS.

2005-06-20T17:31:00.000-07:00

Suck!

today is my 1st day in BPOS. it's so boring! so fucking boring. i start to miss ELDC le. even with Mr Woon frequent scolding. Haha. Mr Puar have nt been here the whole day! no teacher have attended to us. we are juz like the outcast of BPOS. all my group members are like from event team de, so i dun have a fren here except Michelle! Luckily Shuying, joana, jiamin, ying, etc. they are all in the same room as us. otherwise i think i would be bored to death today.

haha. i went back to ELDC. Juz miss it sooooo much. miss the room, miss my seat, miss the pple and even the teachers. thought Mr woon is really nasty at times. and all the computers in BPOS SUCK! so many are spoiled. hai.

Hope the on-coming days would be better.

Last day in ELDC.

2005-06-17T03:48:00.000-07:00

Hmm..

Last day in ELDC, so sad. leaving to another shopover without most of my frenz. most of them are going over to ARDC, and i'm in BPOS. Hope we can still meet up often.

Argh.. was so late today! woke up only at 9am! Haha.. but still sign-in as usual. thankz to my kind admin. em.. suddenly so many pple start msging me in friendster, surprisingly, dunno why. Haha.dump pple.

Went Zouk that night wit gil and deborah. Mambo nite!So fun! Haha. so crowd. so many pple there can dance so well wit da music. like para para dance. haha. em. was there at 10 plus. saw many familiar faces there. even rebecca from haagen dazs. saw NTI pple also. i was enjoying until 1plus midnight. cos it was so crowded. so packed, can't dance also, can onli stand. haha.
Eric called that night, wanted to pick me up. he sound like so worried i will get drank or kana take advantage by guys there. so sweet of him. anyway theree's Flow show this sat by vincent. was asking if i wanna go, cos can put me in the guest list. so kind. beach party is also on sat. haha. but i have got to work! hai. dunno whether should i go after that.

hmm. dun feel like going to holland village le. seems to hate the place now. so sucky. thinking whether to go work. em. so sick. nth make me happy there. going back also like work 1 or 2 hours onli. so stupid! wondering wanna go back this week anot. sick! mayb should juz leave the place for good.

Clubbing.. Yoz..

2005-06-13T21:50:00.000-07:00

bored. Mad.

Hmm.. i wanna go clubbing!!! who wanna go?? hai. but. he wan me to come home early. eh. if i'm going, how to go home early? how? really craving to go club* club*! Haha. funky nite out.
Hoho. so how?? still considering.....

...... haven make up my mind!
but i guess he's really worried la. late nite out without him. doubt he can sleep well, Oopz, i doubt he can even sleep if i'm nt home. should i juz give in like that and give up the idea of going?

Anyway, was in a damn bad mood. was fucking pissed off doing my project. mila and me were so tired doing. hai. hope it dun happen again.

Had a good chat wit Eric ( My PTL- short for part-time lover), hmm.. heeren. would u think it would be fun working there? emm. might get transfered there. brought him back for my uncle's fried kway teow and my granny's Cheng teng!! so delicious...

Happy birthday darling baby... Anyway it's Marcus's birthday. bought him a cake. em. bringing him for movie next week...

buaiz.

-upsad-

2005-06-12T22:15:00.000-07:00

depressed.

hmm.. should i?? shouldn't i??
i think it's time to change a new environment. i think i've given in too much, done far too much for the shop. and. i'm nt appreciated at all.

I'm "self-centered", u said that to me! it have been engraved into my heart, i'll never forget what u said and wat happen. i told myself, i'm nt going anymore. i shall put a stop to everything. shall let the rest take over my job, anyway i'm juz a self-centered gial, and anyway anyone can do my job. i've given up hope in everything. esp. work!

take care pple.

u hurt me once a again.

2005-05-30T05:34:00.000-07:00

sad. disappointed.

em. waiting 4 hours for his call. i finally know how important i am, and wat position i stand in him. haha. i'm nothing! mayb his fren need him more than i do, or shall i say he need his fren more than he need me.

sick

2005-05-27T15:09:00.000-07:00

weak, sick

em. i feel so weak. can't really type well.

i wonder wat hav he been doing. i seriously dunno how to describe the feeling i have now. thinking of it juz make me cry. suddenly i feel that i dun really seems to know him. he's like a stranger to me. a total stranger.

i feel like stopping now.

2005-05-25T21:31:00.000-07:00

tired. lonely. sad. mixed feeling. *SOB*

em. i feel like stopping, now! i'm dead tired. hav been working the past whole week. haven really got any rest. feeling pretty sick now. but no one knows. i seriously dunno why am i doing so much. making myself so tired for nth.

Intended to take mc today, but end up still turn up at sch. it seems that i'm only surrounded by work and sch. nth else. i put my phone on silent on purposed, juz didn't wanna pick up any calls, esp his call. he called a while ago. but still is abt work. sometimes i really wonder, is that all he really want to say to me? mayb i should take a step back and take a rest now. i have been going through a very long and tough journey.

seriously, i feel like juz going missing for a while, a couple of days ba. mayb this would be a great chance for me to take a good rest.

you melt my heart....

2005-05-23T15:19:00.000-07:00

warm, sunny afternoon.

tired. very tired. still doing punchcard, din know it was so troublesome. still have a few more to complete. hurry up yvonne!

em. sorry. i din know u will go all the way to lorong 7 to buy food for me. i juz wanna wake u up, and ya. i was hungry but din intend to ask u to go buy food for me. u are so sweet. feel so lucky. so fortunate. juz a princess.....(Princess Yvonne, haha)

u are always the one who do so much for me. it's seems that i never really do anything. sorry.

hmm.. looking forward to the day we gonna go out. wonder wat we gonna do.
watch movie. shop. go beaching. hugging. kissing.

long weekend~

2005-05-21T18:01:00.000-07:00

rainy, pissed off

argh...
not sure wat's tat prob wit me today. or shall i say since yesterday. i'm so damn pissed off, wit everthing! no mood at all. feel like crying. but... no one is around.

i'm so lonely.

woke up very late today. another day at work. gonna go work soon. haven been eating the whole day.

stoning.

another day in sch...

2005-05-20T14:21:00.000-07:00

bored. bored! i'm so so bored.

hm.. sitting in the eldc lab slacking again.
rushing on my flash proj, woon wanna see our work today. haha.. my lousy flash work. actually i'm so tired, cos i had a long shop trip wit gil and deborah @orchard. so fun. bought lots of stuffs. waste $$, but i like it. haha...
after that went gossipin wit gil at macafe. didn't know we were pretty alike, din know we can talk. discuss or shall i say gossip so much. mmu..haha.... got the last few train home. so worried. eh.. worried that mum will SCREAM when she sees the stuffs i got. lovely tops.

Oh. no. he's gonna scream!! i was so tired when i got home. slept so soundly, didn't hear hear my phone rang. he called twice. nono. he's gonna nag. haha. nvm.... but still, i miss his voice! *pls call me soon*

mila lend me a book recently. by jane green!! mr maybe... love story. so nice. lovely!

argh... dunnoe wat can i do. so boring here... play game?? was playing the burger game thingy juz now from www.jr.naver.com, but i guess i'm too dumb and slow. juz not good wit games. okok.. i shall go tain up my gaming skills now. bye.

poor gal

2005-05-17T11:41:00.000-07:00

Freezing..

It's so cold!! Anyway, Thankz alot Wileen! Finally my blog skin have been probably done up... So Sweety looking (",)

Mila is so sad today.. Hav been crying the whole morning le. actually i supported what she did. am i very bad? em.. but i think it's still better off to end now than later. It's time for her to find her TRUE love, since she think ben isn't the one. good luck Mila. think seriously abt wat u really really want. no matter wat decision u hav made, i'll always be there.
cheeeerrrrss...

KTV cum B'Dae Celebration!

2005-04-26T00:44:00.000-07:00

Night, Cosy

Em.. I'm so Happy today. Juz had a wonderful and surprising B'dae Ktv Celebration! It suppose to be juz plainly a Ktv session for Eximus, but they had secretly bought me and Wee Beng cakes to celebrate our b'dae. Haha.. i guess this is the 1st time my friends celebrated my b'dae for me. I'm so touched. So happy.. Took many picz wit many pple, wit Mr Ray, Mr Bryan, Ms Cheryl... etc..

Hmm... I'm wondering wat present would i get for my b'dae.. More Cakes?? Haha.. Eric promise to get a cake for me, a 3kg i/c cake.. Eh.. will Dad get me a cake too?? Haha.. Actually.. i simply hope Dear would remember my b'dae and hav time for me. Really really hope so.. Hai.. this is all juz my hope..=)

1st Day @ ELDC

2005-04-18T15:00:00.000-07:00

Rainy, Cold

Sianz...
1st day @ELDC, there isn't anything to do at all. Hav been sitting infront of the com for the past few hours, it's so bored. And... i FORGOT to bring my phone, stupid me!! Made a couple of friends, val & medeline, my group mates.. Hai.. Poor Mila not in my group, lucky me, in the same group as jeanne.. Bored!!

Drinking Maraton..

2005-04-18T00:39:00.000-07:00

Wuhaahaa...
Night, Cosy, Home!

Woo, today went KTV wit NTI frens, so fun!! I ended at drinking so much, guess was the onli gal there that drank the most. When have i become so good at drinking. Met many new frens there too..

Em.. The old Taiwan couple went to Haagen Dazs to look for me, brought food for me too. so touched! They brought my fav prawns for me, live prawn! They buy me ice-cream too. Ooh.. ya... we took photo too.

Went to drink at Harry's bar, Haha.. drink again!

And... Ben send me and Ace home. Can see that all were shocked! Especially John, cos Ben seems to be so close to us, eh.. send us home wit his car, Posche! Damn cosy sia. More chances to come. Anyway, this was the 1st time he mention about me going over to his restaurant to work for him. Em.. and he was planning to let me work for him after i finish school. Haha.. is this considered as lucky?? i guess so... Thank you ben!