Thursday, June 23, 2005
[[am.i.happy.?]]
sometimes i really feel so lonely. without him. anyway i think no movie again. i'm sure he will forget all about it again. he's forever busy wit his frens. his buddies. but juz nt me. why?
recently, many pple started leaving me msg in friendster. out of a sudden. dunno why. a trend or wat? it's like near to 10 lorz. anyway, someone recently confessed to me that he like me! oh god. i juz simply can't believe it. haha.
__`Princess Lonely`__ [8:26 PM]
Monday, June 20, 2005
[[!st day in BPOS.]]
Suck!
today is my 1st day in BPOS. it's so boring! so fucking boring. i start to miss ELDC le. even with Mr Woon frequent scolding. Haha. Mr Puar have nt been here the whole day! no teacher have attended to us. we are juz like the outcast of BPOS. all my group members are like from event team de, so i dun have a fren here except Michelle! Luckily Shuying, joana, jiamin, ying, etc. they are all in the same room as us. otherwise i think i would be bored to death today.
haha. i went back to ELDC. Juz miss it sooooo much. miss the room, miss my seat, miss the pple and even the teachers. thought Mr woon is really nasty at times. and all the computers in BPOS SUCK! so many are spoiled. hai.
Hope the on-coming days would be better.
__`Princess Lonely`__ [5:31 PM]
Friday, June 17, 2005
[[Last day in ELDC.]]
Hmm..
Last day in ELDC, so sad. leaving to another shopover without most of my frenz. most of them are going over to ARDC, and i'm in BPOS. Hope we can still meet up often.
Argh.. was so late today! woke up only at 9am! Haha.. but still sign-in as usual. thankz to my kind admin. em.. suddenly so many pple start msging me in friendster, surprisingly, dunno why. Haha.dump pple.
Went Zouk that night wit gil and deborah. Mambo nite!So fun! Haha. so crowd. so many pple there can dance so well wit da music. like para para dance. haha. em. was there at 10 plus. saw many familiar faces there. even rebecca from haagen dazs. saw NTI pple also. i was enjoying until 1plus midnight. cos it was so crowded. so packed, can't dance also, can onli stand. haha.
Eric called that night, wanted to pick me up. he sound like so worried i will get drank or kana take advantage by guys there. so sweet of him. anyway theree's Flow show this sat by vincent. was asking if i wanna go, cos can put me in the guest list. so kind. beach party is also on sat. haha. but i have got to work! hai. dunno whether should i go after that.
hmm. dun feel like going to holland village le. seems to hate the place now. so sucky. thinking whether to go work. em. so sick. nth make me happy there. going back also like work 1 or 2 hours onli. so stupid! wondering wanna go back this week anot. sick! mayb should juz leave the place for good.
__`Princess Lonely`__ [3:48 AM]
Monday, June 13, 2005
[[Clubbing.. Yoz..]]
bored. Mad.
Hmm.. i wanna go clubbing!!! who wanna go?? hai. but. he wan me to come home early. eh. if i'm going, how to go home early? how? really craving to go club* club*! Haha. funky nite out.
Hoho. so how?? still considering.....
...... haven make up my mind!
but i guess he's really worried la. late nite out without him. doubt he can sleep well, Oopz, i doubt he can even sleep if i'm nt home. should i juz give in like that and give up the idea of going?
Anyway, was in a damn bad mood. was fucking pissed off doing my project. mila and me were so tired doing. hai. hope it dun happen again.
Had a good chat wit Eric ( My PTL- short for part-time lover), hmm.. heeren. would u think it would be fun working there? emm. might get transfered there. brought him back for my uncle's fried kway teow and my granny's Cheng teng!! so delicious...
Happy birthday darling baby... Anyway it's Marcus's birthday. bought him a cake. em. bringing him for movie next week...
buaiz.
__`Princess Lonely`__ [9:50 PM]
Sunday, June 12, 2005
[[-upsad-]]
depressed.
hmm.. should i?? shouldn't i??
i think it's time to change a new environment. i think i've given in too much, done far too much for the shop. and. i'm nt appreciated at all.
I'm "self-centered", u said that to me! it have been engraved into my heart, i'll never forget what u said and wat happen. i told myself, i'm nt going anymore. i shall put a stop to everything. shall let the rest take over my job, anyway i'm juz a self-centered gial, and anyway anyone can do my job. i've given up hope in everything. esp. work!
take care pple.
__`Princess Lonely`__ [10:15 PM]
Monday, May 30, 2005
[[u hurt me once a again.]]
sad. disappointed.
em. waiting 4 hours for his call. i finally know how important i am, and wat position i stand in him. haha. i'm nothing! mayb his fren need him more than i do, or shall i say he need his fren more than he need me.
__`Princess Lonely`__ [5:34 AM]
Friday, May 27, 2005
[[sick]]
weak, sick
em. i feel so weak. can't really type well.
i wonder wat hav he been doing. i seriously dunno how to describe the feeling i have now. thinking of it juz make me cry. suddenly i feel that i dun really seems to know him. he's like a stranger to me. a total stranger.
__`Princess Lonely`__ [3:09 PM]
